AD's and hummus

I seem to be having one of those times when I feel like I am withdrawing from life.  Becoming a spectator again, rather than a participant.  I feel like I am not really here... and nobody will much miss me anyway.  Except maybe the kids, and that's only because I'm the one who feeds them.  I'm unimportant, but not in that "nobody loves me everybody hates me I'm gonna go eat worms" way - more like I'm just insignificant... something to pass by and not notice.

It's weird.  I don't know what causes it, or how to reverse it.  It just happens sometimes, and then goes away.  Even when I was little.  Then I used to think I was just part of someone else's dream, and I was just waiting for them to wake up and I would never have existed at all.  I guess it says a lot about my childhood that that idea didn't scare me.

So - have I picked the best time to wean off my anti-depressants or what?  I'm on Effexor, have been for about 6 months.  I've been off and on AD's in the past, the last one being Zoloft for post-partum depression (remind me to tell you about THAT someday - that was fun!).  I went off the Zoloft when I was ready, with very few problems, and had no idea that Effexor was going to be any different.  Oh Brother was I wrong.  Severe headaches, nausea, enough dizziness to rival any 3 carnival rides you can name... and I was back on it, calling for my doctor.  So now I have a lower dosage, and a plan to wean off slowly.  Sounds like a good idea to me.  Or maybe just a way to prolong this nasty headache, I can't be sure right now.

OH!  Total subject change here!  I'm going to have to turn in my Hummus Harlot badge for just a Harlot one.  I tried hummus finally and well.... I took pictures so you can see for yourself.  Please ignore the scary frizzy hair I have in these - my planning skills are obviously on vacation along with my sense of reality, or I would not have done these right out of a shower without doing *something* with my hair!

The cast - Whole Grain Wheat Thins (very yummy) and some hummus I picked up at Wal Mart.  Yes, I know, this is basically sacrilege, but I generally try an easy version of something to see if I might be interested enough to go all out for it.

Me with hummus loaded cracker.  Not much explanation needed.  Frizzy hair not being mentioned.

Hmmm... tasting, no longer smiling (also not looking at camera)

And the verdict.  EW.  I followed this one up with a few more unadulterated crackers to get that nasty taste out of my mouth.  So I may be kicked off OHiH twice.  My hummus was not homemade.  And I didn't like it at all.  I guess that just leaves more for the rest of you.







Okay, headache is winning.  If I knew for sure how long the withdrawal from Effexor lasted I'm not sure I wouldn't just choose to quit cold turkey and get it over with rather than drag this out for weeks or longer.  I've done the longterm headache thing already (I had one continuous headache for just over 3 months last year) and I am so not liking this.  Anyone have any experience they can share?  Sorry for all my whining.  I'll try and make my next post more cheerful!  I still have birthday pictures and a few from the pumpkin patch.